The Wound

This morning, I accidentally (subconsciously) got on the wrong train this morning to work. This route brings me to Trinity Church and its cemetery. It also takes me past Liberty Plaza, reconstructed since the 9/11 attacks, and across the street from Ground Zero. Earlier this week, on October 27, the Office of NYC Mayor Mike Bloomberg announced that NYC will expand the search for human remains in and around Ground Zero, the former site of the World Trade Center in downtown Manhattan.

Liberty PlazaLiberty Plaza, looking northwest from Broadway toward Ground Zero. 1 Liberty Plaza is the building on the right. The Service Road, where human remains were recently found, runs in front of the World Financial Center buildings, visible in the background.

Liberty PlazaLiberty Plaza, looking west from Broadway. The Deutsche Bank building, where human remains were recently found, is the tall building with the scaffolding. Liberty Street runs to its right.

The New York Times also noted yesterday that the remains of three more victims had just been identified, including the head flight attendant and a passenger on the plane which struck the north tower. With these, remains of 1,601 of 2,749 victims have been identified. That means 1,148 are yet to be.

Three of the sites to be searched are visible in the photos above:

7. 1 LIBERTY PLAZA [Building at right of first photo]

The rooftop of this 53-story building will also be searched, for the same reason.

8. LIBERTY STREET [The street running to the right of both photos]

Exploratory excavations are planned between West and Greenwich Streets, in parts of Liberty that were never fully rebuilt. There may be a layer of trade center material under the temporary asphalt surface.

9. FORMER DEUTSCHE BANK BUILDING [The tall building in the second photo]

Since September 2005, some 760 human remains, mostly small bone fragments, have been found on the rooftop and upper floors of this 41-story building at 130 Liberty Street, which was damaged and badly contaminated on 9/11. It is eventually to be demolished.

Where the City Will Search for Remains From Sept. 11, New York Times, November 2, 2006

The numbers are keyed to an excellent map the Times put together, showing all the locations where searches will be concentrated. There are 12 of them, covering several acres.

I worked downtown then, as I still do. I remember how – quickly in retrospect, achingly slowly at the time – the news went from rescue to recovery. When I heard that relatives were being asked for toothbrushes, combs and hairbrushes, anything from which DNA samples could be taken for identification, my heart sank. I knew what that meant. They weren’t finding bodies. They were finding “remains”: the fragments, shreds, traces and dust that once were people.

In the weeks and months that followed, I saw the grim grey goo which covered everything and ran in the streets and gutters, smelled the sharp acrid ozone smoke when the wind blew the wrong way. I regarded these then as remains, for that’s what they were: all that remained.

I remember too how quickly I angered when someone, a friend, referred to the “tragedy.” “Tragedy?!” I bellowed. “It was an atrocity.” She nodded, in acceptance, and asked why. I paused to find the words and replied, “People did this.”

People did this in the name of their gods, as the greatest atrocities have always been committed. As they continue to be committed today.

Happy Halloween!

[2006.11.01 18:00 EST: Linked to The Farm.]
[2006.11.01 16:00 EST: Described t-shirt text.]
[2006.10.31 23:00 EST: Updated with photos from the rest of the evening. Mwa-ha-ha-ha!]

It was a great day. I walked to the subway through the cemetery at Trinity Church. There was a magnificent sunset. Over 330 trick-or-treaters. All candy gone. We went out to dinner at The Farm at on Adderley on Cortelyou Road, where most of the staff and many guests, including me, were in costume.

DSC_3174Over 33 pounds and 1,695 pieces of candy: $50 (estimated)

Wigs, makeup, ghoul teeth: $60 (approximate)


Seeing small children freeze in shock and hearing their shrieks of gleeful terror as they look up at your hideous face:

PRICELESS
DSC_3197The t-shirt has a drawing of a leering devil on it. The text reads: God’s busy. Can I help you?


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Grief & Gardening #2: Five Years After, “Ths Transetorey Life”

There are three sections to this post:

  1. Trinity
  2. Ground Zero
  3. St. Paul’s

Trinity

This is a flower border at one of my favorite gardens to visit. Earlier in the year, there has been a succession of Iris, Hemerocallis (Daylilies), Hosta, and other common and sturdy garden perennials. There are ferns, and flowering cherry trees on the grounds.
Flower Border
The garden is the cemetery at Trinity Church in downtown Manhattan, just down the block from Ground Zero. The photo above is looking south, toward the church itself. Here’s another view looking east, toward Broadway, which is just on the other side of the wrought iron fence surrounding the cemetery.

Flowers, Trinity Church Cemetery
This really is one of my favorite gardens to visit. First off, I love cemeteries. During my troubled adolescence, a cemetery at the end of our street was a refuge for me, a place I could go where no one would bother me, a place of solitude, and quiet. I came to enjoy the history of it, reading the stones to learn about people’s lives, how young they died, how many of them were children, and infants.

This garden cemetery also reminds me of impermanence. When I walk through it, I’m on my way to work, in the financial district of downtown Manhattan. It’s easy to get stressed about work. This walk helps me keep a healthier perspective on things. Check out the engraving on this headstone.

Headstone, Trinity Church Cemetery
“Here Lyes ye Body of John Craig Who Departed ths Transetorey Life September ye 14 1747 Aged 47 years” At 47 years, he was an old man when he died. He could have easily been a grandfather. And yet, “ths Transetorey Life” … Next week is the 259th anniversary of his death. How many lifetimes, how many generations, is 259 years?

Another thing I enjoy about visiting this garden cemetery is the ritual I’ve developed for entering it. There’s really only one way: from the Rector Street station on the R/W subway line. This lets me out on Church Street. After emerging from the subway, the streetscape is the photo below.
Church Street, looking North toward Ground Zero
This is Church Street, looking north. Ground Zero (of which more below) is just one block away, where the buildings end on the left-hand side. On the right-hand side is a massive, and seemingly ancient, sandstone block wall. See the trees peeking out over the top of it? Those are from the garden cemetery. Here’s a view of the church from this vantage.
Trinity Church
That’s right: the cemetery is two stories above your head. Behind those stone blocks are the dead. To reach the cemetery, we have to climb still further, through the street-level opening in the wall, of which we only see the top of its gothic arch in the photo above, and up another two flights of stairs. Lest one forget, the sculpture set in the stone above the passageway is no cherub.
Grieving Angel

Ground Zero

I wrote earlier this week about the arbitrariness of anniversaries. But I have been feeling this one, the 5th anniversary of 9/11. The city is feeling it, too. Peoples’ grief is closer to the surface, more accessible. Mine certainly is. I’ve also been remembering a lot of what it was like in the city right after. There are reminders of it everywhere, on the news, in the papers, special exhibits and events, and especially, at Ground Zero.

A Tribute Center was dedicated this week on Liberty Street, on the south side of Ground Zero. I’d heard about it and I went there after work on Thursday. The doors had signs on them which said “Closed.” There was a couple next to me also looking at the signs. Someone inside saw them and opened the door for them. I thought they were just closing for the day, and let us in anyway. I tailgated in. I didn’t realize that it’s not open to the public until September 18.

Anyway, it’s quite a collection. They have artifacts. It took me a while to figure out what this object was. When I did, it just shocked me. I didn’t have my camera with me, just my camera-phone/phonecam. It’s a lousy picture, and I’ll go back and get a better one.

Another thing which shook me was some photographs in one of the display cases. There was a contact print of a couple of frames from a still camera, with some clear problems with light leakage along the top of the frame. The text explained that these photographs were taken by a photographer on the scene. His camera was damaged, and he was killed, when the first tower fell. His camera and film were recovered, and those prints were made.

Outside the PATH (Light rail/Subway to New Jersey) station, on the fence surrounding the site, is an exhibit of photographs from September 11 and the recovery efforts. The photographs are incredible, from all different photographers.
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The names of the photographers and explanations of each scene are displayed alongside the photos. I didn’t make notes of their names. I’m hoping I can find a catalog of them online somewhere. Here’s one of the photographs.

St. Paul’s

St. Paul's Enshrouded
This shows the tower of St. Paul’s Church about to be engulfed by the debris cloud from the collapse of the first tower. I’m pretty sure this was taken from an office building to the east, looking west toward the church and the World Trade Center site. St. Paul’s is directly across the street from the PATH station, and just a couple of blocks up the street from Trinity Church.
St. Paul's Church, viewed from the PATH Station
St. Paul’s sustained heavy damage, but it survived, and it served as one of the centers for recovery efforts downtown. Its fence was covered with memorials for months. Right now it’s housing the Threads Project, which collected threads, ribbons, and so on from all over the world and distributed it to weavers all over the world to create the works you see below.

St. Paul's Church, Interior, South Wall
St. Paul's Church, Interior, North Wall

One of the losses at St. Paul’s was a large Sycamore from the cemetery. If the tree had not been there, the church would have sustained even greater damage from debris which felled the tree instead. The tree has been captured as a symbol of the day, by casting its root system as a sculpture in bronze. This sculpture is permanently placed in a courtyard outside Trinity Church. The sculpture is called “Trinity Root.”
Trinity Root

And so we’ve come full circle. From Trinity, to Ground Zero, to St. Paul’s, and back again. We grieve the loss of a great tree, whose death saved others’ lives, and celebrate it. We grieve the garden, and grieve through the garden. It’s the weekend before five years after. I will be mowing the lawn, weeding, maybe sifting some compost, and preparing the garden to receive the bulbs which should arrive in a few weeks. I will do all these ordinary things. And when I return to work on Monday, I will look up, and turn my face to the hole in the sky, and remember again.

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Garden (and more) Diary, June 17, 2005: The Fourth Garden, Four Gardens

[Transcribed from note book. Written while on the R train to work]

My good deed for the day: Letting a fat man on the subway know his fly is open.

I can relate. I’ve done the same in the past week. It’s not easy for a fat man to be aware of his appearance below the chest. Easier, more comfortable, to stay in the head. There I can be as thin as I remember I was.

John and I bought a house. I’ve written nothing for so long. Major events like that can just slip by without notice. It’s a big house. So far, it’s too big for the two of us. And it needs lots of work. I’m trying to do a little each day, but it’s hard.


Got off the R at Rector Street. Now sitting on a bench in the graveyard of Trinity Church. “Here lies …” “Sacred to the memory of …” Even the bench is worn, low to the ground. To remind us, I guess.

I like to walk through here on the way to work. From our new home, my commute offers more opportunities to do so. Reminders of impermanence to help me keep work in perspective.

The gardens here – the cemetery is a garden – are simple and beautiful. Massive hostas, irises, past bloom. Daylilies, clouds of them, in fat green buds, just about to announce summer.

I’m starting my fourth garden in New York City. Some day it will be on the Victorian Flatbush House & Garden Tour, probably years before the house itself is. I can aim for 2008, the year of my 50th, three years away.

There are at least four gardens to be developed: two sides, the front, and back. All have something different to offer. Each can welcome visitors in its own way. All will relate to the house, and relate the house to the grounds. It’s already happening, as I come to understand the house and what it wants.

Well, off to work …